The one who smiles in the rain

As I am listening to upcoming game Kingdom Hearts 3's theme song "Don't think twice" I began to think about how the song's lyrics just hit me. Because for me it tells two different stories. Firstly it tells about love and that you can not back down from love. That there is a perfect person for you and when you find it you can not ask questions and what ifs, you just must live and see. Secondly for me the lyrics remind me that I can not be stressing about every little detail in my life. I am always second guessing my decisions and making scenarios in my head where everything falls in to ruins. But I can not live in constant stress, sometimes I shouldn't be thinking twice but trusting myself to make right decisions. Believe in myself, as we all should. We must be brave in front of our uncertain futures. Even if my fridge just broke down and my foster cats today went to a new foster home... I believe that this exchange is going to be eye opening experience fo...

Twenty days to go. Fewer than three weeks... Where does the time go? It feels like time is sand running through my fingertips and I can not keep all that time in my hands, I must let go of it. Sometimes I feel scared to leave and that my life is somehow going on a brake. It is a weird feeling and I have had to assure that "No, your life is not  going to be on hold." I have had to went down to the roots of where this feeling comes from. It comes from the fact that my life is here, relationship, friends and job. But in the other hand I think that first time I am going to enjoy studying and student life when I don't have job to think about also I will see and learn new culture which is not possible here. I will have experience that I will hold on to even when I am old. I hope to make memories. I read Kazuo Ichiguro's book Never let me go and there the main character is looking back on her memories but somehow also looking forward to the future she knows but at the sa...